I hate how I can get into such a spiral of bad thinking that everything and I mean EVERYTHING in my life goes kaput.

It’s like there is some little voice inside me that says:

You deserve to be miserable, you SHOULD be fat, your house is a pigsty and people stay away from you because THAT IS WHAT YOU DESERVE.

I really hate feeling this way.

I honestly believe I will go to my grave never having had anyone love me. I mean love Me. Rori. The girl inside.

on the lj of phantasmyc. It really hit home for me. The sentiment about Not Bush I mean. This rings true for me, as I am sure it does many Americans.

The most important thing about this election for me, well, the thing that scares me most about Bush continuing in office is the continued damage which will occur to our civil liberties. America as we know it will NOT exist in 4 years.

That said.. I have to say that anyone who gives me the argument that they are going to vote for Bush because at least he is a KNOWN, and Kerry is an UNKNOWN and that could be worse…well, please. Just go over and read One Thousand Reasons

I am NOT ashamed to say I would be voting for Gilligan if he was the other candidate. I have never been this scared IN MY LIFE. Had you asked me four years ago if I would take a “Just vote against him!” attitude, I would have vehemently said no.

Okay, if you have been dozing off during the first part, now is time to pay attention:

Now? We live in America folks, and until unless a LOT of us get OFF our asses and get the system changed, voting for anyone besides a Republican or Democrat is a waste of a vote. Sorry, it is how I feel, and frankly, I think it is reality. It’s like saying to a little kid… You get an Apple or an Orange. PERIOD. No Jello, No Ice Cream. no pony. APPLE OR ORANGE. Do your research of those two, and fucking PICK.

But apparently, I digressed.

About that icon, that is me. NOT BUSH. That is how I am voting. I am quite happy with Kerry now, I truly am. I think he rocks. But had it been Dean, Edwards, Kucinich, anyone, I would be for them.

Because me?

NOT BUSH!

I found this site earlier, and I read it through.

It’s SPOOOOOOKY!

Correspondence from Mark Condry

I am switching to WordPress.

The rebuild time on MT is kicking my ass.

If you did not have to rebuild the entire site for minor changes, it would not be so bad.

So, if I disappear for a few days, you will know I messed up.

Heh.

Hi.

I have read that changing the mt.cfg by adding a line that says throttle seconds 60 greatly reduced the amount of spam received.

Can anyone tell me where in the mt.cfg I need to add that?

I am very depressed at getting 100+ spam per day, in spite of adding the close comments plug in, disabling html, blocking MASS quantities of IPs, despamming using MT-Blacklist.

The other thing I am going to try today is displaying pop-up comments, because apparently that helps as well.

Thanks!

signed, depressed spam getter

Mortification is when you realize that you misread the notice saying the Orkin Guy was coming in to your apartment, and you realize he has been here already, before you have a chance to clean up the wall-to-wall mess in the apartment.

And when I say WALL-to-WALL I mean it.

*hides*

Put on some fucking clothes.

Performer Maria Eugenia Rito of Argentina arrives at the MTV Latin Video Music Awards.

And the thong OVER the jeans? Jebus.

Just wanted to warn you.

I have a new domain name and I will be redirecting this one to that one.

Gotta love the excitement, no?

Hmmm. I wonder if I have to rebuild all my IP Bans?

*sigh*

Stupid CNN.

In a story about Deaf students struggling to get diplomas because they struggle with English, CNN states:

Deaf students like Lane who have relied their entire lives on the shorthand of sign language to communicate often have a tough time catching on to the subtleties of the written word, which can be as hard to pick up as a second language.

NEWSFLASH

Sign language is not SHORTHAND and English IS their second language.

Yanno, if you don’t know shit, you should keep your mouth shut.

There are some valid points in the article, but JEBUS.

Now the fucking spam fuckers are sending trackbacks!

If I delete them in MT, will it delete them from their places?

I am so upset!!!!!!!!!

Every day, when I walk out in the morning, and I see Pikes Peak, I get so calm inside.

I especially love it in winter, when it looks different every day.

edit:

Actual photo from my office window at work.

You can see views of Pikes Peak during daylight hours here.

If I ever meet someone who actually clicks the shit in the blog spam, I am going to bitch slap them and then cold cock them.

I am.
I mean it.
so.not.kidding.

These are real USB cards.

source

Americans Going to Canada for Flu Shots

Shit!

There are terrorists* there, the drug is not FDA approved, and it could have come from a third World Country!

WTF are these people thinking!!!!!

* My friend in Canada was told she is required to prove to the FDA that she is not a bioterrorist because she wanted to send some store-bought wrapped candy to the US. Mind you she can send a home baked cake, but not that candy! Because OMGWTF!!!11!!!Eleven!!! she could be a bioterrorist.

Not that you did not know that already.

She is complaining!

“Going and going and going is all I’ve ever known since I was 15 years old,” she wrote. “It’s amazing what advisers will push you to do, even if it means taking a naive, young, blond girl and putting her on the cover of every magazine.”

Are we supposed to feel sorry for the little twit who claims to have come up with the “sexy schoolgirl” stuff from her first video and the cover of Rolling Stone?

“My prerogative right now is to just chill and let all the other overexposed blondes on the cover of Us Weekly (magazine) be your entertainment,” she said in an open letter posted on her official Web site.

Um, yeah? Let’s see. This is the twit who posed for the cover of People two times within about a 6-week period to make us believe a) she was really really in love with Federline and b) she was really really ready to be a stepmommy.

Then, she faked her wedding and sold exclusive rights to another magazine.

And, I bet she only knew how to spell “prerogative” by reading it off her latest album.

Which, if you have heard her version of that song, you probably sank several drill bits into your ears to keep from ever hearing it again.

TWITney.

So, I am having a shitty day and I decide to come in for an early morning blog.

What do I find? 200 spam. Thank god for MT-Blacklist throttling their asses, but still. FUCKERS.

I really need one night of sleep without waking up screaming two or three times. I really do.

I really need this shit with my car resolved. They have had it TWO WEEKS. I feel so powerless and stupid. Truly. I feel like this mistake just might fuck me up for years.

I hurt. I have not shared about this a lot, but I have been in physical pain of one kind or another since my teens. And I gotta say, it really wears you out.

Okay, that’s all. I just needed to vent.

This is the top shelf of my new computer armoire.

Questions?

Daily Kos had a video snippet you must see to believe.

I would recommend only watching it if you can download 20+ megs, because it does not stream well, and yeah, poor dude’s bandwidth would be fucked.

I did transcribe one bit of it, because I could not BELIEVE he said it.

“He (David Kay) tells me that is really hot and uh coming from Texas of course, I know the definition of really hot. The difference of course being our air conditioners work in Texas and I appreciate your hard work.”

But even more frightening than his words, is his delivery. This is a man, who more than usually, has extreme difficulty stringing together words. In one case he spoke of David Kay saying… “Today David Kay came in to the Oval Office to brief my national security team (pause….) and me” with the “and me” like a startled afterthought.

It’s truly frightening. Watch it before you vote for Bush.

*giggles* Yeah. Like anyone voting for Bush reads this.

Mer?

Bush was drooling. DROOLING. Spittle on the side of his mouth. Like a rabid dog.

On CNN, they had three live bloggers. They had the lighter side, which really has no meat in regards to the debate, but it is funny.

They had the right side (be clear here, right in this context does not mean correct), which is conspicuous by its lack of support for Bush.

Then they had the left side. My favorite quote from that blogger:

I’m a little insulted that Bush is this cavalier about the facts. What does he think – that we trust him? After his fibs, falsehoods and fabrications about Iraq, no American with a brain will ever trust him again.

This sums up my feelings about people who support Bush. I am not name calling but I honestly, from the bottom of my heart, do not understand why they would be voting for Bush. As yet, no one has edified this point for me. Rather, they just get pissy and bring up Kerry’s war record, as if Bush’s lack of a war record is a moot point.

Nonetheless, the blogs are interesting to read.

As you know, I had some issues with the car I bought.

The update is… I know nothing. I have not heard from the dealer, so I presume they are fixing it. I called them and they said they would call me when it is rectified.

In the meantime, I am just grateful I have a loaner, as opposed to renting.

Okay, here is a pet peeve of mine.

People who say “It’s Deja Vu all over again.”

That is so redundant.

One can simply say “It’s Deja Vu".

Jebus. Learn how to properly use your French borrowed words.

I have a roaring case of Sciatica.

It’s one of those fun things that NO MATTER WHAT you do, you cannot stop hurting.

Sit? Hurt.
Stand? Hurt.
Lie down? Hurt?
Bitch slap a stranger? Hurt.

Meh.

I have an LJ and these are two of the icons I am using.

These were created by a very talented person, sans_espoir.

Rest in Peace, brave soul.

May the work you started continue and prevail.

It’s no secret I like Vincent D’Onofrio. I have not tried to hide it.. I think he should have been named Sexiest Man Alive, I dreamt he was my boyfriend, I admitted for secret lust for him grew when I realized he was left-handed, I was pissed at ALL of you for not getting him to me for my birthday.

That’s fine. But tonight on Law & Order: CI, he took sexy to a new level. His hair is longer, and curlier. The grey temples shine silver and add a new masculinity to him. His top lip makes the cutest little pucker. Look at those lips! Look, I say!

What can I say. RORI <3 Vincent D'Onofrio!

Dressed for Halloween awhile ago.

I am the whore in purple.

The other woman was the inspiration for the Passionate Patty character in an early Leisure Suit Larry game.

I know, it’s a bit blurry of a photo.

I have not blogged about this yet, because I feel ashamed.

The car I just bought? Well, when I got it, the blower for the AC was making a little noise, so no big deal it would be covered under warranty.

Then, when I drove it at night, it seemed like the headlights were out of alignment. Again, no big deal.

So, I took it back to the dealer, who still owed me a detailing, since I did not get it the night I got the car. They took it over to the Chevy dealer to fix those two things.

Well, the Chevy dealer calls me. Turns out they cannot fix the headlights because the car had been in an accident and the thingie that holds the lights in properly will not work until there is a little bit of body work done.

I feel like … shit. I feel like I am so fucking stupid and quite possibly made the biggest mistake that could fuck me for years.

I told the dealer that I bought it from and they said “We will make it right” whatever the fuck that means.

Wish me luck, okay?

Oh, also the Chevy dealer says they could not hear the bad blower motor. So, I have to apparently get someone IN the car with me and show them the noise.

I fucking HATE how car guys treat women. HATE.

But as for potentially making a big mistake on the car I bought… *cries*

Just taking a moment to think of John Lennon on the day of his birth.

Then, thinking of my friend Josh and hoping he is having a happy birthday.

Well, I have to admit, I had fun on the way home from work.

This SUV nearly swerved and bashed into the loaner car I am using.

I had to honk TWICE.

Then, as I was passing her, she waved her hand like “Wha…”

This meant she had no hands on the wheel because with the other one, she was talking on HER FUCKING CELL PHONE.

So, I flipped her off.

I continued, and soon, she very purposely pulled along side of me and slowed down.

I looked over and she was leaning forward in the driver’s seat, presumably attempting to give me a “look” that meant business, her mother in the passenger seat was squinting at me, and the three kids in the back seat were all leaning over to look at the honking lady.

I looked straight back at them, flipped them off and mouthed “Fuck You". Then I sped up.

Then, due to traffic flow, she got beside me again. So, I did it again.

It felt good.

Had her windows been open, I would have yelled at her. Alas, we are having a warm day.

British hostage Kenneth Bigley has been beheaded.

My prayers go out to his family and for peace in his soul.

I cannot imagine the horror of waiting weeks hoping your country would come save you, and then realizing they would not.

God, I can hardly bear what is happening in this world.

Kerry takes a slight lead in the polls.

Congress is looking to curb the SUV tax break.

The “Internet Spyware Prevention Act” bill passed in the house 415-0.

Someone searched my site for “Rori Naked”

Yesterday I had to call the county clerk’s office to find out why I had not yet received my voter registration card.

This what they said:

Please stay on the line as our menu options have changed. Please choose from the following nine options: (blah blah blah blah – 9 not applicable options later), Press *7 to repeat these options or, if you are using a rotary phone, an attendant will be with your shortly”

Does anyone really still use a rotary phone? Nonetheless, it was certainly preferable to listening to 9 options again. AND I got a real person.

Woot! The Raspberries are going to reunite to open a new House of Blues venue in New York.

That song, Please Baby Go All The Way reminds me of Randy Figueroa in high school. Oh how I loved that boy and his kisses.

Such a very lovely pretty woman.

But the eyebrows!

So wrong.

Especially when they are in your car.

I cardanced to Baby Got Back, all the way home. Just kept hitting repeat.

Doesn’t the Bangles song call Sunday the “Fun Day"?

Not for me.

It’s the “I’m gonna puke day". I am not really sure why, but I have a panic attack EVERY Sunday.

It’s odd. It’s not like I don’t like my job, because I do. It just happens. Maybe because I do not get as much done as I think I should?

Who knows. Right now I am catching up on blog reading, because I seem to get lax on that lately. I am going to try to add more to Bloglines, because that is easiest for me to manage at work.

Anyhow, Hugs to all. I am going to take some drugs.

p.s. Go look at the Bangles website. It is pretty…goofy.

Well, we here at One Girl’s Life (that would be me, Rori) like to make sure that you all are up to date on the latest Dave Matthews News.

edit: Awww, eBay took it down. But just picture an eBay auction with a urinal.

If you love you some Dave, you can now buy a urinal cake that “might possibly have been very close to Dave Matthews Pee Pee” on eBay. The seller makes no clarification as to whether he means Pee Pee as in urine, or Pee Pee as in Penis.

Although, I cannot really imagine why a urinal cake “might possibly have been very close to Dave Matthews” Pee Pee as in Penis. That seems kind of gross.

What are those things anyway? Do men pee on them? Lots of different men? Are they like little smell-good cakes of pee collection?

Imagine what a pair of underwear that “might possibly contain very very small remnants of Dave Matthews Poo Poo” would go for. OMG! They could be used to get DNA to prove it was HIS poo that was dumped from that bus!

Well, new for me. It is nearly new, 8,000 miles on it.

I feel like such a grown-up.
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